How do I kill myself


A film by Emily Atef, drama, 91min, 35mm, color, DE / FR / CH 2011


© NiKo Film / Desert Film / Ciné-Sud Promotions / Vandertastic / Hugofilm Production / WDR / ARTE Grand Accord

Funded by: Filmstiftung NRW, Deutscher Filmförderfonds, Federal Office for Culture Switzerland, Filmförderungsanstalt, Région PACA, Zürcher Filmstiftung, Center national de la cinématographie, MEDIA

German distribution: Farbfilm Verleih

World sales: Les Films du Losange


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Fifteen year old Adele wants to die. Since the death of her brother, everything around her has felt strange and distant. What remains is just a deep sadness in a dreary, hard work life.
Timo (43) is on the run. Convicted of murder eight years ago and imprisoned, he finally broke out of prison. Injured and exhausted, he seeks shelter on Adele's parents' farm.
When Adele discovers the fugitive, she brazenly makes Timo an eerie offer: she will help him escape. But Timo should kill her as soon as he is safe. Out of necessity, Timo agrees to the morbid pact.
Suspicion and mistrust shape the journey that will take her to Marseille. The boundaries between perpetrator and victim are blurring. The brittle Timo can hardly bear the girl's closeness, while Adele in turn constantly reminds him of his dark obligation. However, the more arduous the circumstances become, the more the strange couple must trust and rely on each other in order to achieve the disparate goals.

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Nicole Gerhards, Hejo Emons, Stefan Schubert, Thierry Lenouvel, Hanneke van der Tas, Christof Neracher, WDR, ARTE Grand Accord


Emily Atef


Emily Atef, Esther Bernstorff


Stéphane Kuthy


Beatrice Babin


Olivier Dandré


Cyril Atef & Manfred Eicher

Production Manager

Claudia Schurian

editorial staff

Anke Krause, Götz Schmedes, Andreas Schreitmüller, Michel Reilhac, Rémi Burah



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